Category Archives: Just thinking

I’m just a little disturbed

My experiment took a slip to the dark side as I cruised the keyword list looking for something that wouldn’t bring up a porn site. Keyword Tracker removes any blatant words and they do a great job, but oh how humans can masquerade their fettishes behind the meaning of names. 

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And then there it was, the innocent word that brings a softness to every child’s slumber:  Webkins. My children only have a couple. Mandy adopted my nephew’s and is bringing it up in our backyard. Moving it around like a new mother protecting it from danger and escape. It’s full of dirt and grass and likely the processed food she so industriously cranks out back there.

Actually, when the kids got their webkins their computer was conveniently broken so we haven’t entered the online extravaganza. Their tags are still around here somewhere. They get dusted and put back in the pile of “I’m not sure what this is for, but it might be important someday.”

Something similar is happening on my Facebook profile.


Play hunting games

I got caught today doing something in my car that probably everyone does from time to time, or even on a daily basis. I was a sitting duck, stuck in traffic, warm October morning with the window down and Gretchen Wilson pounding out of my VW stereo system (gotta love that German attention to acoustic detail). Anyway, the song was “There Goes the Neighbourhood” and I was belting out the lyrics, total oblivious to the fact that a hunter sat poised nearby to catch me in the act. Another VW driver (with TDI) was bopping along with me and he told me to “keep singing, it sounds great.”

I wasn’t exactly embarassed. It kind of made my day. I’m sure he found it amusing. I read recently that if someone gives you a sincere compliment, they are actually feeling it 4 times as deeply as they are expressing it. I wonder if the music is available. Maybe me and Jimmie can saddle up for a tour. Y’all come back now, ya hear.


48 hours

According to my latest Word Tracker report, to make it to the list of top keyword searches (the short, 48 hour list). You only need to be searched about 300 times. So, I’m setting a target to google myself regularly for the next couple of days, just to see if I make the list. I’ll use the term, “Heather Hindle blog”, which shows up on my list of search terms quite often. Feel free to donate to this.

Oddly, and it’s not news, but the terms yahoo and google are consistently among the top searched keywords. Myspace is number one and youtube and facebook are up there too. You’d think people would be able to just add the .com in the Address line, but then we wouldn’t have all these cool stats, they’d be hidden away inside the companies’ files, hiding as unique and returned visits that we are not privy to.

Really says something about how people use the web though. Imagine a world with no search…scary isn’t it.

I’m going to google myself now…


Something is definitely wrong

Lately, when I create a post and mark it private, then hit the publish button, it goes up, published, live, and appears in my Facebook feed.   Wait…I am an idiot. I should hit the save button, not the publish button.

You should see the stuff I’ve got in here that you can’t see…


Boneless

Yesterday I slow-cooked chicken with potatoes, carrots, sweet potatoes and basil. I used boneless chicken so I wouldn’t have to worry about my kids choking on those nasty little bones. So tell me, when you find bones and skin in your boneless, skinless chicken, should you take it back?

I’ve been soiled, a little less pure.


I thought I was done

But, I actually have more to say, to think and feel. Here’s a little something about nothing.

Money doesn’t rule the world, but we all want it and no one ever gives it back, and if they did, they regret it.

Love is like a candle. You have to strike a match to appreciate its beauty.

Sex isn’t something naughty, it’s a form of communication. Like, “I like you, get closer”.

Your career isn’t the most important thing, but it creates a base for happiness. Unless, of course, it doesn’t make you happy, in which case you need to do more of what does.

Women like bad boys because they are safe. They are so busy trying to fix the guy they don’t have time to focus on themselves.

Bad boys like women who make them unhappy, because they like to have a reason to cheat, drink and lie.

Everyone complains they don’t have enough, but they probably do, they just can’t find it among all their stuff.

Everyone loves drama and conflict. Without it there’s no art.

Religion isn’t about rules, it’s about acceptance.

War doesn’t stop anything but life.

Peace begins inside. We are beacons.

Kids need structure, freedom and security. Without it they grow up afraid.

Your life doesn’t end until there’s no one left to remember you.

Sometimes we make mistakes, loving kindness is our eraser.

Growing old is a blessing. May you all be blessed.

If we truly appreciated how precious our time is, we’d be nicer to each other.

Our minds are powerful. We create what we think. So, believe anything you want as long as it’s positive. All great people have been labelled insane at least once. For instance, right now I’m thinking I have no forty-something acne and I didn’t just drop $150 at Winners. Why do Tommy jeans look so dam good? So no one will notice the acne. That’s the power of positive spending.


Dating as a single Mom

There’s just one rule.

Don’t go on a date after you’ve had your children all day.

You’ll already be too tired of saying,

“No. Stop.

I said don’t do that.

Don’t touch that.

You’re going to make a mess.”


Minutes matter

When you’re feeling like no one cares,
you get a message from a friend filled with
fun and empathy, and you smile.

When you’re feeling like you’re not able,
your children hug you and say they love you,
and you smile.

When you’re feeling like the good stuff is taking too long
to come your way, you get a call from an old friend,
and you smile once again.

Life is a mixture of hope, disappointment and intrigue
when we worry, we lose hope.
when we expect, we find disappointment
when we hold each minute as it comes, we experience the intrigue.


Stomach cramps

I’m not feeling well today. Perhaps too much sugary foods which are…um…not good for me. I was awake most of the night and had to beg off work today. I checked my emails though and my voicemails. Nothing urgent, but I miss the structure when I’m sick. Rest is good though, renews the soul.

I must have slept a little last night. I had a dream I was surrounded by close friends and they were encouraging me to do something…I’m not sure what. But the dream was relaxing and when I awoke I felt as if I could take on the world…for a couple of minutes anyway.

Remember that log I was treading in the summer. It’s dry now and I’ve cut it up for firewood. It still keeps me warm but soon it will be nothing more than ashes and I’ll have only the memory of its challenge and conquer. I’ve moved. It’s a good feeling. Maybe that’s what my dream was about.


Soulful ride

I haven’t worn any jewellery for months, but Justin picked out a pair of earings for me to wear today, so I did. I wore them as I ripped up the carpet on my back deck–I finally got tired of looking at it. Even with the chipped paint, it’s still an improvement. My hands took a beating. I have a blister on my thumb to match the dozens on my feet and the calouses on my left finger tips. Sounds like I’m in hard shape, but it’s barely noticeable, I hope. It felt good to take care of things around the house. This summer has been busy. I started off like fireworks on the July weekend, painting the outside of my fence, my front porch, and keeping the dandelions in check. But the days got away from me. My lawn is full of weeds and the bushes in front are in need of shaping. I trimmed them a bit yesterday, but my sheers are quite dull, so it’s a hack job at best.

Does it really matter? Brian’s Mom is back in ICU. She has a blood clot in her neck and they don’t really know what’s going on with her. She may need surgery again. What can I do but pray and hope for the best? Maybe I should have went to church today so I’d be a little closer to God’s ear, if that’s possible.  It’s depressing really, seeing a family in so much pain and so absorbed in worry about someone they love so much. Really adds perspective to your day.

Friday night on the way to Mom’s house Korey asked me how the bones come out of a body when someone dies. I told him they don’t, the skin melts away over time and leaves the bones behind.

“Do they take the bones out before they bury you?”

“No, they bury you with the bones.”

“Then how do you get to heaven?”

“Well, this is important, so listen up. Your soul is in your body. Your body stays on earth and your soul goes to heaven. Then it may come back in another body someday.”

“What is a soul?”

“Your soul is what makes you you. How you feel about things. How you look at life. What makes you happy. What makes you sad. Everything about you comes from your soul. Why do you ask?”

“Just wondering.”