Whatever it takes to make us happy is what we ought to go for. But what about the feelings of others. Can we be happy when those around us cry? Are we not more than just our own feelings? Today I’m simply puzzled by my inability to conceive the notion of wholeness. What we give we get. When we offer with a generous heart, our heart grows bigger. When we offer with judgement or expectation, our minds narrow. Yet there is resistance to letting go, to providing for someone else with what we have, what we conceive to be “ours”. I’m caught between the guilt of not offering more of what I have and a righteous sense of attachment to “my stuff”. Sleep on it and the answer will be clear. Let space and time open the pathway to knowledge. 

These moments in life are so defining. Bending ourselves this-way-and-that will lead us to a greater sense of who we are. It’s complicated at the moment, but one day it will seem a simple thing.

Why does quiet seem to come in spurts?  My mind is so full of imaginings that I can’t hear myself. Meditation is the only way to absorb the rush of messages coming in. My problem is that it’s hard to distinguish the inner voice from the ego and that makes it difficult for me to trust my intuition. Even when I think I’m listening, the ego wins on the second thought. Some meditation 101 is in order. I need to approach my practice as if for the first time, which is truly the only way to successfully approach it. The trick is to practice. Here’s a writing meditation that’s coming in as the noise in this place fades away. Where there is ever a dream you can live it. Where there is ever a joy you can experience it. Where you find love, you find yourself. Where you find yourself, you have love. Now that’s coming in loud and clear.

My mind is racing to conclusions that don’t even make sense and my soul is dragging it back. Here’s what I learned today. If a relationship is testing you, look past the outcome you expect and absorb the lesson waiting for you. Everyone is brought to us for a reason and it may take a few tomorrows to understand why, but trust that there is a reason. Don’t move your boundaries, just peak over the top and, without judgement, find a new pathway through the challenge.  We grow through change—external and internal. Something to chew on.  

There’s a storm outside but I’m calm inside. I’m thinking about how life treats us and how we treat life. I’m listening to power thoughts in my car and it’s quite invigorating. I hearing all happy and positive all the time—sounds absurd and impossible. Sometimes it’s fun to think about negative stuff  so you can prepare yourself and react appropriately in realtime—too much though and you’re left paranoid and unable to function in society. What motivates people to pull away and shed love. We are watered and fed by the love that comes in and then we give off more love in return. We are like the rainforest on love. That’s funny.

Change brings so much to us. We need to readily accept it and embrace the power it holds to shift the paradigms and open us up to new possibilities. I see solutions not problems and there’s always more to see.