The light filters through and with its company
I see past this moment.
I see the brillance of a new day.
With stillness as my guide
my body directs me toward my true place
where I will be free and open.
I am not looking for direction, I have it.
I am not looking for hope, I feel it.
I am not looking for peace, it is within me.
The earth feeds us and we give back,
becoming a part of it. We are moist with possibilities.
Love is our water.
How can I tell if there is hope when the road seems long
and there is nothing to guide me.
I look within and see a scared little girl
who is shy and quiet, not wanting to let herself down.
But what of the future and what of the past.
I’ll set them aside and let the present be my guide.
I’ll feel what I feel and love what I love.
With yesterday’s pain behind me and
tomorrow’s joy yet to be conceived.
At Church last Sunday we were invited to open the bible each day for a week, point to a verse and keep a journal of what we found as well as the message that broke through for us. I thought this would be a great way to practice writing. It is, but I’m discovering much more than that.
Here’s the 6th reading for the week, you’ll find them all in Faith.
Luke 11:21-26
When we guard our belongings with weapons we can be defeated by someone with more weapons. When we send out evil thoughts and do evil things, these things come back to us stronger than when they left. When we are not with Jesus we are scattering ourselves.
What does this say to me today?
Have faith that you will be safe and open yourself up to the joy around you. Don’t guard yourself so tightly that you cannot be known to others. Send out only positive thoughts and do good things for others, for these will also come back to you.
I did that today!
Child’s play is a miracle of the human spirit. One minute two children can be fighting and kicking and screaming at each other and the next they are playing joyfully, sharing, hugging, encouraging each other. As I experience this from a distance, I’m really learning so much about how we can love and fight and forgive and forget and love again. It’s a learning. The best class I’ve ever taken.
If someone brings you fun, absorb it. If you are feeling hurt by something or a situation, move out of the way and let it go by. If you are feeling loved, let it surround you and bring you peace. If someone leaves a mark, be gentle with yourself till the scratch is gone.
“Forever is a long time,” she said, twisting her hair through her fingers.
“Not long enough sometimes,” he said, gently brushing her arm.
“But I was hoping this would go quick. I’m not ready,” she said.
He shifted in his seat. “I’m disappointed. I thought we were together on this.”
“We are,” she said, “I’ve just fallen a bit behind.”
“So we’re good?” he asked.
“For now,” she said.
Here’s the 5th reading for the week, you’ll find them all in Faith.
Luke 9:20-26
This is where Jesus told the diciples that he would suffer, die and be raised to life. He gave them strict orders not to tell. He explained that anyone who wanted to join him needed to give up themselves and live for him. Anyone who tries to save themselves will lose, but those who give their life to him will have their life saved.
What does this mean to me today?
I guess this is the famous passage that who ever believes in me shall not die but have everlasting life. To me this isn’t literal. I think we experience many deaths during our physical lifetime. When we are too focused on ourselves and are not sharing love, we experience an emptiness that is like a death. But when we follow the light, which is Jesus’ love, we are saved over and over and are able to experience a bit of heaven here on earth. The beauty is that this light is always there, we need only look, it’s never too late.
I wasn’t expecting that!
I was feeling a little alone today so took a walk downtown. I no longer feel alone, but I think I’m getting the flu. More than one person detonated a germ bomb near me. I’m rushing now to administer echineachea and Cold FX before the fallout invades my cells. I may be doomed.
If you practice yoga, you’ll appreciate this. Often when I’m in a challenging pose, a memory will come to me right out of the blue. Tonight, just as I was aware of this happening, my yoga instructor said, “if a memory comes in, just be with it and let it dissolve.” She then went on to explain that memories get stuck in our bodies and we need to free them. I’m not talking terrible memories or anything earth shattering. Tonight I simply remembered being at my doctor’s office at her previous location. This particular memory dissolved before I could chase it to a cathartic ending.
Sometimes though I think about people who are no longer with us. I must be holding my sadness in my body. It feels good to release it and release them.
“I couldn’t care the least bit about that,” he said as he turned the corner.
“You should care, it’s important,” she replied, grabbing his hand and struggling to catch up.
“It just doesn’t matter to me,” he said.
She stopped abruptly, pulled him back and whispered, “but it matters to me.”
