Fortunes at bay

My to-do list at work is an entire page long. Some items are quick fixes, 5 minute things really that will likely open up a can of worms and take 3 days to untangle. Such is life working in a complex environment. I’ll roll with it, 7 hours at a time. I’m sure it’s not unique so I’m not looking for sympathy.

I picked the kids up and rushed to return a blouse before the shop closed. We made it. I found what I was looking for and the kids bought decorations for their dawgs. Jibbits or something. I don’t know. The shop owner took pity on me and gave us a good deal. Still, I had to put some back. Guess what. I put back the wrong ones. Tears flooded the dinner table as they divided up their spoils and a huge fight ensued over plastic cherries. WTF? Korey ended up letting Justin have them, after he socked him good in the stomach and Justin took his dinner outside on the front porch.

I found his dinner plate outside but he was no where in sight. I panicked and yelled for him. I could here a faint, “I’m done” but couldn’t tell the direction. He was safe and sound in the bathroom waiting for me.

Last night was chocolate. A full glass of milk swung at Korey from a distance. A damp shirt, chocolate floors and walls. I made Justin clean it up. I could smell it all night and at 11:00 was on my hands and knees with the windex, polishing my laminate and getting rid of the sour cow. It wasn’t pleasant but it’s gone now and so is the moment I wish I had handled better.

Tonight we went to see the new puppy, Miss Pickle. A sweet little beagle who undid my shoelace and played tug of war with me. The kids enjoy her and she sits patiently in my arms for neck rubs until something catches her eye and my hands become her favourite chew toy. Brings back memories of Mandy as a puppy.

My sister lost her kitten. Mini-me was only 16 weeks old. Now the mother cat is sick too. The vet thought it may be distemper. That’s scary. I’m not sure how much more my sister can take, her life is so messed up. She’s strong but could  desperately use a break and have something go right for a change. Bad karma I tell her. The drama is more than I can handle from a distance and she’s smack dab in the middle of it. I wish I could do more. I hope my love and support is enough.

Here’s my writing meditation for the day:

Sit and wait patiently. Life will bring you your rewards one moment at a time. Blessings are all around you and as you let them in you find yourself smiling. Not the fake, I’m ok smile. Real deep smiles that bend your cheeks till they hurt and leave lines around your eyes so everyone can see your blessings.

I had a lucid dream last night. It was very scary. I’m still trying to determine what it meant. I’m almost afraid to go to sleep. I hope tonight’s story is sweeter, gentler and shows me the way.